I have a confession to make: I don’t really have my shit together as much as I let on. I just occurred to me that maybe you already knew that. Nonetheless, I felt compelled to tell you because sometimes I feel like a poser.
Why would anyone ever admit this? Isn’t it important, especially as a business person, a solver of problems, and someone who spouts advice about living a healthy, balanced life, to have their shit together? Are you going to think I’m a fraud if I don’t have all my ducks in a row? Maybe I have it more together than most people.
I know this is just chatter in my head, but I often feel this way. Don’t we all hide behind a mask of a smile, a lifestyle, or even a body at some point? I’ve given this post a lot of thought through the years (yes, years), and I feel like now, more than ever this needs to be out in the open; not just for me but for others who undoubtedly face the same feelings.
Many days I wake up in the middle of the night and I realize I had some dream about something I worry about. Or, I wake up with every intention of being positive, but I just feel blah. Some may blame age, but I never use that excuse because age is a state of mind (and so is being happy).
Over the past few years I have realized a few things that make me feel better. Here’s my list:
1) I realized a while back that I NEED omega 3’s to feel good or I just feel like crying. So, I make a smoothie and take my vitamins.
2) I also realized that working out in the morning really made me feel good too. Even though its a challenge (even for me) to get motivated, once I get going I’m good (so, don’t feel bad if your motivation is on the low side- we all have that).
These tasks were done sporadically at best, and when I did them, I felt good, and when I didn’t I felt bad.
One day I decided to make a playlist of song that get me going. Maybe listening to an upbeat song would get my feet tapping and raise my mojo. I started with some obvious ones (see below). These songs are super corny (I was actually embarrassed when they shuffled into my playlists during group workouts at Venus), and my kids roll their eyes when I want to play them, but I have found that listening to them really works!
As I listen to them and they uplift me. I listen to the words and they have way more meaning than I ever thought before. (Now THAT, I will blame on my age and gained wisdom over the years.) Some songs are more obvious than others and maybe I’m reading way too much into it, but hey, whatever works!
So here is the first song on my list. I’m going to write about each song on my list each day. I hope it inspires you and helps YOU get your mojo going!
1) Rise by Katy Perry.
I already wrote a whole blog about this, so its probably obvious that this would be on my list. The words that strike me the most are: “This is no mistake, no accident…”
How many times a day do we berate ourselves quietly to ourselves. I know for me, I generally am not even aware of it (until I recently took a poll of my thoughts randomly throughout the day). The shit that drifts into my consciousness, and runs behind the scenes is surprisingly negative! I’m sure you know what I mean. It runs the gamut of subjects from personal safety to how I look (like the incessant question: does this make me look fat?) to highlighting my imperfection (like “I suck” or “that was stupid” or “what a fuck up”).
This is no mistake, no accident. To me, that says, you’re not a fuck up. Stuff happens for a reason. Its how we REACT to it that matters, and getting all depressed is not very constructive. “When you think the final nail is in, think again…” Life isn’t over just because it throws us some curve balls. How do we learn and grow from those? I don’t have to tell you about that–many of you inspire ME with your amazing attitudes.
One more phrase that gets me choked up (still!) is “Oh, ye of so little faith, don’t doubt it, don’t doubt it…”
Life is a process and what we want takes time, ESPECIALLY when you want a lot out of life. Don’t doubt your greatness, your perfection, just because it’s taking time, or there are a few potholes in the road. Have faith in your vision and enjoy the process.
I heard a great analogy for this this morning. It’s like growing corn. When you plant seeds, you don’t expect it to sprout immediately. And we know that while that seed is covered in soil, and even though we can’t see it, there is magic going on (it’s sprouting!). We don’t get mad because we can’t see it yet, or say “forget it”. We understand that growth is a process and it is for us too.
I’ll reveal the next song on my list sometime this week. What is on your “Happy” playlist? Do you have any suggestions for me?? I would love to hear from you! Please share and comment.